I hope you all are having a great Thanksgiving and are realizing all of the things you a grateful for. Joseph and I enjoyed an excellent meal prepared by our good friend Mark and his family and friends. 2 words: Food Coma.
Well - It's been a while since I've updated you guys on my life and music... and as you can imagine, quite a lot has happened in nearly 6 months!
First, I feel like I should let you guys know that I have had a tough year as for the first time ever I suffered from panic attacks and anxiety. And let me tell you, they are not fun! In fact, I literally suffered everyday symptoms of sleeplessness, heart racing, non-stop thinking, cold shakes, thoughts of death... ugh. It was terrible. I've held this from you all as I needed time to cleanse my thoughts and energy and try to somehow find the "old me". I still to this day don't know why I went through this. I battled anxiety from late May through late July. So, if you've been keeping up with me, you will notice that the timing was not good at all for me as I lost my grandmother on June 26th and released my new single "Our Love" on July 4th, which is also my birthday. So many things hit me at one time, it truly was scary and unbearable. Literally to the point were I felt lost in life and felt that death was upon me.
HOWEVER, I am at a much better place now. Not fully the Josh I once was a year ago... but getting there. This anxiety thing truly did a toll on me. But, I feel like I am getting there and have learned a few lessons from going through it. One big one was just knowing that your body truly is a miracle within itself and it can sustain through any blows it is given. In a way, I now trust my body to take care of me.
So, with all this being said, I am now back "in the zone" and ready to get the ball rolling again :) Bare with me as I sort things out and start to fan the fire again :) You never know what you'll find in the darkness!
All the best to you guys and stay healthy and safe!! -Josh
Well - It's been a while since I've updated you guys on my life and music... and as you can imagine, quite a lot has happened in nearly 6 months!
First, I feel like I should let you guys know that I have had a tough year as for the first time ever I suffered from panic attacks and anxiety. And let me tell you, they are not fun! In fact, I literally suffered everyday symptoms of sleeplessness, heart racing, non-stop thinking, cold shakes, thoughts of death... ugh. It was terrible. I've held this from you all as I needed time to cleanse my thoughts and energy and try to somehow find the "old me". I still to this day don't know why I went through this. I battled anxiety from late May through late July. So, if you've been keeping up with me, you will notice that the timing was not good at all for me as I lost my grandmother on June 26th and released my new single "Our Love" on July 4th, which is also my birthday. So many things hit me at one time, it truly was scary and unbearable. Literally to the point were I felt lost in life and felt that death was upon me.
HOWEVER, I am at a much better place now. Not fully the Josh I once was a year ago... but getting there. This anxiety thing truly did a toll on me. But, I feel like I am getting there and have learned a few lessons from going through it. One big one was just knowing that your body truly is a miracle within itself and it can sustain through any blows it is given. In a way, I now trust my body to take care of me.
So, with all this being said, I am now back "in the zone" and ready to get the ball rolling again :) Bare with me as I sort things out and start to fan the fire again :) You never know what you'll find in the darkness!
All the best to you guys and stay healthy and safe!! -Josh